Midnight Light

I don’t why, when the little child returned my wave, I felt really really really really happy. That moment just really made me happy, I don’t know. But that amazing child is going to grow up to be a gorgeous and beautiful person 🙂

Tomorrow

Oh gosh, spent time watching some videos on Youtube about those parliament discussion thingies. Hahaha don’t ask me why but after seeing those gifs on Tumblr and Eugenia linking it to me on Facebook, I was very interested. And gosh, the feelings of disgust when I watched them. I’ve never watched any of those government discussion forum things so the only time I see any famous political person is via the news segments and morning shows. They seem to be pretty calm and collected people. Evil, but in a sly way and it doesn’t show. But how wrong was I? Watching them was just disgusting. Personally attacking, immature people in the background, making fun of Gillard backstabbing Kevin Rudd when Kevin Rudd was right there in the crowd. And I swear, there’s this woman that always sits in the front row of the opposition party side and SHE LOOKS LIKE THE BIGGEST BITCH. I haven’t found a video of her speaking yet but she’s just a rude bitch and I just can’t stand seeing her face. I think I’m just so glad I never turned out to be a person that was particularly fond of politics and I hope my children will NEVER become like that.

After Dark arrived today. I’m a little disappointed with the size because it’s not the same as Sputnick Sweetheart so it’s not going to look neat when I place it on a bookshelf. It’s pretty small so it might be more difficult to read. I think he’s become my favourite author and I think I’m going to continue buying his books 🙂

I’ve been hearing about it a few times in the past few days and let’s just say how much I want to laugh each time.

Studying is going pretty good I guess. I think English would be a really good subject if you minus the stress and pressure of not knowing the question and the short period of time we are allowed in our exam. Yeah, I think if you take away those factors, I would probably like English a lot more because it does go into pretty deep stuff that I enjoy 😀 Biology just looks so bleak I don’t even want to touch it. Urgh!

But yeah ~ not prepared but can’t wait till it’s all over. I just hope after going through so much within the past year, I still have the energy and willpower to get through this last bit.

I’m so glad I had Anterograde Tomorrow opened in my tabs because the author set it to private but because I had it there, I could save it. Kekekeke, I feel so proud of myself ^~^ I think I realised why I can’t read actual books. It’s because English names sound so bad. They’re just so bland and uninteresting. So now, I hope I can find a lot of good translated books from Asian countries or some publisher discovers some of my favourite fanfics and makes them into a book. I really hope Anterograde Tomorrow and 48 Hours were actual books because they are just amazing.

Heard this song in the Japanese restaurant we ate at on Monday and made me fall in love with this song once again. I just love Tablo so much. He’s just amazing and I think he’s become one of the reasons I want to understand Korean – so that there’s no translation barriers in me understanding his lyrics because the ideas behind his songs are just beautiful. I really feel like his lyrics have been getting more intense and there’s underlying tones of resentment. In comparison to his past lyrics, I really feel he went through a lot of emotion turmoil because of that incident a while ago. I wish I had his ability to express my emotions as well *sigh

I’m still really torn about Epik High signing with YG btw.

I did become normal
My heart became burdensome so I emptied it out a lot
Although my smile is empty and dead, I’m the only one that my smile can’t fool

Everything is a mess
It’s springtime again for you but seasons don’t change for me
Even though you say my heart will bloom again, I’ve got no tomorrow

Don’t say that time heals all
Because each moment to me is a lifeless existence
Yes, time, it doesn’t pass by just because you walk it
Living, just because you breathe doesn’t mean you are alive,
Now, I know

叶子

You know what? I’m not even sad about it. Not like I knew you really well but I never expected you to be like this. It’s not really helping these emotions that I’ve been feeling lately. It’s just…I just couldn’t believe what I was reading. I think…I’m just purely angry.

I think maybe I’ve just had this image of you in my mind for the past few years that I feel this sense of anger when I realise that you weren’t like this. Even worse, you were doing these things to my friends. Those words you said, your actions, using one of my close friends to your advantage and making her look like a bitch. Seriously?

I see the reason why she was acting like that towards the incident. At first I thought she may have been overreacting a little bit considering it was purely a joke. But now I know that she knew along what type of person he was. I’m not saying that he’s a bad person. Definitely not. And I understand why he did that. But what he did is just beyond what I can accept.

I also read them. I read them all. I hurt the first time she told me. Now it even hurt more to hear it from her in person along with what she read online. You know what? I’m just done with it. Just…I just want to get HSC over and done with and just leave.

我一個人吃飯　旅行　到處走走停停
也一個人看書　寫信　自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡　就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你

I haven’t heard this song for so long. Back when I first heard it, I was quite young and there was never any feelings that came up when I heard it, I listened purely for the melody. But now, I think I understand…

48小时

48 Hours || Translated || Original
“你什么时候杀我？”
“现在。”